CNY was over so fast. the holidays were a total blur and the only thing i remember vaguely was waiting for like, one hour, for the bus to arrive at sentosa. i am never, ever, going to sentosa on a public holiday ever again. anyway, i realised that even though its chinese new year, many people just ignore the tradition that you have to wear red. these few days there's suddenly been a surge of black-wearers. i guess tradition and superstition no longer have places in our modern society..

just this afternoon i went and bought some valentines day gifts for all the sc pple and my classmates, and kinda spent about a quarter of the money i gained from angpows during CNY visitation. but oh well.

i'm finding it extremely difficult to concentrate in lessons nowadays, especially economics. honestly, i didn't learn anything particularly useful in today's economics lesson.. actually, i think it was because i didn't understand what the tutor was saying. i am going to die. jc life is really much harder than sec school. i really miss sc!! especially sec 4 emath lessons where we practically did the same stuff every lesson i completely didn't have to pay attention. oh, who can ever forget bio lessons. we just slept throughout. now though, if i were to sleep during any lesson, i would probably be kicked out of hp. everyone here is just so smart. i bet half of them have IQs that cannot even be measured. its depressing.

enough depressing stuff. its valentines day in 3days time and i'm super excited. even though valentine's was like a huge event in sc, i think in jc valentines would just be crazy with all the hormones and everything. i can't wait!!

oh no, i was just reminded that on wednesday its cross country. oh no. and i would totally stand out in my bright yellow apollo shirt. and totally get malu-ed when i reach the finish line- last.

i'm currently listening to switchfoot and some of the songs are really old but they are still my all time favourites. i wish i could see them live again and this time, get their signatures!! ahh anyway i think today has been a really lethargic and restless day. the only 'work' i've gotten done is reading a little part of a book about communism in vietnam which i don't think is even related to the topic but whatever. its hard getting work done when you're around so many members of the family. cny celebration yesterday was a riot. i had a lot of fun trying to sell stuff and getting dissed by so many people and getting that same crushing feeling in my heart over and over again... but it was still fun. though i think i'd make a horrible salesperson.. then went out with pri school friends it was really exciting to reminisce and talk about old times.. which made me feel extremely jaded and old. i can't believe in approximately 3 yrs time i'll be driving my own car.. and maybe in 5years time, starting to work in that horribly big full of shit world economy. my gosh. time passes really fast..

just now i actually watched a little of the news on tv and i was quite disturbed by what some people actually do this chinese new year. like running to plunge the first joss stick in temples and if thats not enough, the people continue to pull it up and down continuously its supposed to bring you some sort of luck but how could it really since its really dangerous and poses such a big fire hazard i was quite appalled. but oh well. i'm glad i'm not part of this craziness.

more visitation tomorrow and more futile reading.

something tells me i'm not getting my priorities right. i am drowning in this cowshitpool of homework but i still spend half the time i have at home online. not doing work. and beside me the pile of books on Sukarno, Vietnam and Burma etcetc are so daunting i feel like just stabbing them and throwing them out of the window. but i refrain. because then i could be convicted of killer littering.

many things have happened recently. a highlight of the week was definitely the switchfoot concert. i must sincerely thank yaoqi for inviting me.. choosing to go for switchfoot instead of CCA was one of the best decisions i've ever made. even though the opening acts were WAAAy below switchfoot standards, and their music was cacophonous and the host was an odious woman i felt like it was all worth it at the end of the concert cause switchfoot simply rocked. i was totally excited about the switchfoot shirt i bought and was feeling high the whole 1and a half hour trip home... until the next day i came to class and SOMEONE showed me her wallet with switchfoot signatures and i felt quite pissed.

and then there's this stupid history essay which i simply can't write because i have so much research to do and everything just goes in one ear and out the other within SECONDS.

and chinese new years coming i doubt i'll beable to acomplish anything with all those visitations.

and the food.