these couple of days i've been having a ball cca hopping. and finally lessons have started and its really quite an eye opener to start analysing poems and thinking about history (that isn't exactly history since the people are dead and things are still changing) all of a sudden. Plus, i think i've been permanently scarred with a fear of coaches ever since yesterday's touch rugby training. i really don't want to talk about it anymore, but lets say, the guitar training today was like heaven compared to the hell me and jesslyn suffered yesterday. okay maybe i'm exaggerating just a teeny bit. but thats the beauty of the language. Jules renard said 'writing is the only time you can talk without being interrupted'. i realised that i love to quote jules renard. he makes the wittiest comments!!

its kind of scary that, in exactly one weeks time, i'll know my fate for the next two years. i'm really afraid. never been more afraid in my entire life. i keep getting recurring nightmares of horrible results that i hope will never ever materialise. anyway, let me get my mind off these dreadful thoughts by talking about the lessons that we've been having for the past few days. First of all, i'm sick of people labeling me as elitist. seriously, i'm no more elitist than i've been before, and i wasn't and still am not elitist at all. i was completely stupefied when someone shouted across the staircase 'hey elite' when she was actually referring to me!! this is terrible:( ah well. i guess this is the price that has to be paid for being the only class with its own classroom+ lecture theatre+ staff room + special timetable that seperates you from the mainstream students.

but seriously, humanities has been extremely enjoyable. i'm so glad we're doing hamlet, even though some people from certain catholic schools have already done it the year before. but who cares. i'd always remember the whole 'tobe or not to be' hamlet soliloquy. and hamlet is the most complicated guy ever, next to macbeth, who is simply crazy and stupid. history is also pretty interesting, since we're learning about southeast asia, and i love learning about burma, ever since i read that 'saving fish from drowning' book which had loads of references to burma, and i too, choose to call it that way. we haven't had an economics or gp lesson as of today, but i hope the lesson tomorrow will be really fun. i haven't had a very good impression of economics as yet, since the teacher who gave the talk about econs seemed to imply that econs doesn't really have many prospects, which made me think about why i was even doing econs atall. besides it being a filler subject. to be honest, i would really miss all these lessons if i were to be forced to leave hwachong next week...

two days ago i went back to secondary school, and i have never felt so patriotic in my entire life, besides the times where i see singapore being mentioned at international competitions or summits or anything like those. it was so heartwarming to see all the juniors and ex seniors and eat the canteen food, which i failed to appreciate the last 4 years of my life, but am missing it terribly ever since the move to hci. i will definitely be going back there for thefood, but unfortunately the next time i step into scgs would be a terrifying occasion, that is, the o'lvl result collection day. which i am completely dreading.